The Proposition

Hi Everyone! It's been a while. I've been busy the past few weeks, as I'll share in a later post. Today though, I want to address something important. Today, I'm on a mission to change the way you think about addiction. Scary right? See how I bolded and italicized to make it impossible to ignore? …

The Decision

Today, I finally made an important choice in my treatment. This is a monumental moment for me for two reasons: I came to a conclusion in an important situation, and I am confident in my choice. This has been something that I've been debating for months. It's a difficult choice. It's life-altering, it's divisive, and …

The Insecurity

Recently I have felt more confident and controlled than ever. I feel comfortable for the first time. It is becoming increasingly rare for me to feel lost or helpless. Today, though, I had a bit of a crisis. It wasn't the normal panic, but rather a sense of uselessness and uncertainty. I'm not sure exactly …

The Time to Give

Following a much needed vacation, I returned home to mounds of unfinished work and a serious mess of a work schedule. After several days of struggle and some minor jetlag, I finally feel equipped to pick up where I left off. This post serves two purposes: it reinforces my understanding of a valuable skill, and …

The Diversion

For about a week, everything has felt different. It's like the whole world is brighter. Colors pop. I've been able to focus, and breath, and smile. Times like this are always refreshing. I feel energized. I feel confident. That's not to say that I haven't been stressed. I've been worried, jittery, even a little bit …

The Brain

The human brain has 100 billion neurons, each neuron connected to 10 thousand other neurons. Sitting on your shoulders is the most complicated object in the known universe. - Michio Kaku As I've mentioned in The Numbers (go read it if you haven't) mental health is an issue that desperately needs more attention. I know …

The Family

Yesterday I had another session, and until then it had been a pretty good day. I was confident going in. I had practiced some coping techniques that we discussed in the previous session, I had been keeping a list of intrusive thoughts, and I thought I was prepared. We jumped right in, learning some new …

The Numbers

Why mental health deserves your attention Every year, medical conditions such a cancer and supposedly eradicated diseases dominate heath related headlines. Rightfully so! Cancer was the second leading cause of death in the US in 2016, behind only heart disease. The likelihood of being diagnosed with cancer is around 35-40%, dependent on your sex. It's …

The Collateral Damage

I've been talking a lot about how anxiety has affected me. It's ever present, it's painful, and it's fucking exhausting. I struggle with it every day. I have all these feelings that overwhelm me consistently, but only one really stands out tonight. I feel guilty. I've grown used to the daily worry, and the occasional …

The Scaffold

This... this is embarrassing I had hoped to continue the story of my first therapy session today. However, I had an experience that I think will bring more clarity to the thoughts and feelings that overwhelm me so often. Maybe talking about it can help me understand what happened as well. I had made it …